starky00
It's genetic! Life is genetic, or so they say. But i dont believe it. No genes can define you, it just makes up your flesh. Your soul has no genes, your creativity has no genes. Genes make the flesh, the soul makes you.
She walked up to the doors, slowly turning around, waiting if he will make any more sounds. She stalled for a bit, but then grinned, everything is calm and nice. He is on the floor, face down, and slowly a pool of red blood spreads around him. It has been done, she stalled it for so long, but now she stalled one last time before she closed the door forever
Adapted, they said you should become, very much as everyone else. Adapt and obey, become a part of flow and neygh when i say. Don't stand out, don't feel special at all. Adapt and obey and then all will be OK. Same words I am hearing every day, and it makes me sick, to adapt is to fail.
I decline it all, i had it enough and I cant go on. I need to stop, to start anew, my bloody hell this will cost me my head. I need to decline, even so everyone says all its fine. Bloody stop with this hell, before I go insane.
Oh boy they always told me I should reach that, to be more serious, to be more observant. But when I see those adolescent ones i cant keep myself to think that they are complete fools in their maturity. Trying to replace with booze, cigars or drugs something they have lost long time ago, something they only but remember that was here, like a memory of a fleeting dream. So its better to stand aside and watch the ones whom call themselves "Adolescent"
How to get motivated? A self help to make you productive and passive. A motivation to make you better worker, a motivation to make you better slave. All those motivation speeches give me a bore, learned and not thought out, they make you think why am I here? Why do I listen to this?
Noooo i DOnt want to be repressed. GOds i am geting a job soon and it feels like it will take all my creative juices out of me. Noooo i dont want repression, gods no, nooooo. Please no Sweet GOat mother of Chaos help me now. No no no no no. I dont want to go numb and normal.
Selective speices, take into themselves, only what they want and need. Selective selfishness, nation of supermarkets and sales. Selective detective impriosned and not effective. Dont be selective, be aselective, non selective. Take all and take it now.
Active, be active. Join a club, get a hobby. Be active, be proactive. Just do something, just make a start. Be active, constantly they are saying. They are too much active, it feels like radio active. So i have to take a step back, so i wont melt down. Basically I don't like to be active I'll rather be slacking.
I am a swimmer in the life waters. I swim in cold, I swim in hot. I swim till i shimmer i swim till im still. I'm a swimmer in my own soul and the world is my pool. Polluted pool of polluted souls. Time to clean the pool.
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