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cracks in time. i can see them floating above my head, allowing me to peak into the past. a past i'd much rather forget.
blah blah blah bblah blah blah....i sucketh.
Peachy Keen. Missy Higgins, everything is not just peachy without you. Stop saying that.
what am i supposed to with this? NOT HELPING!!
when it rains it pours and everything that can go wrong, does go wrong. If someone told me yesterday that I'd be lying on the concrete helpless, I would've looked at them like they were crazy. But here I am, and you're nowhere to be found, even though you said you'd be here if I needed you.
I once wanted to be in a place like this, thought it would be magical. But the realism that has come over me tells me of all the pain in these stones. I want to escape.
straws have been drawn, and i've found that i have lost. i finf that i am always losing. to you, and to my emotions. i wish that i could control how i feel, but that is true for no one. i know that it is unorthodox to wish for a life void of emotion, but tht is what i want today.
i thought that had feelings for you, Then I realized, i was only projecting my loneliness and need for someone to hold me onto you. I don't want to continue like this, pretending that I love you, when i don't.
i want to be where you are. or have you here with me. pretending that we'll be together forever.
tennis. Dennis used a 5g tennis racket. what does that mean? I don't know.
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