ChristieL
It was all very unplanned. Life is unplanned. One day we're running through the woods looking up at the sky, the next day we're cooped up inside watching a movie with hot chocolate in one hand and your hand in my other. Trying to keep warm. Seasons change and we think that it's planned but truly nothing is really planned at all.
Sing me a lullaby. Just like you used to. That's not true. I used to sing myself pretty songs to go to sleep and now you don't sing anymore. All I think about is singing some pretty lullaby to someone new. Someone who is mine. Someone who is a part of me.
I signed my life away. It was quick. I was slow. I thought it would take a lot more thought. I couldn't think though. There I was and then all that I had was gone. Signed away with a little bit of ink. Gone. That was it.
Get past it. Keep telling yourself that. The past is not the present and when you look back it makes you sad and happy. And these are the things that you can't really change.
Under and over and about and through. We're still not sure where we are but we're sure we're going somewhere. How I long to live under the trees that we pass by everyday. I think there must be other worlds in there. Not like out here so open and light and dry.
Soon seems so long from now sometimes. And sometimes it seems so, well...soon. I find myself talking about the things I'm going to do in a couple minutes as soon. I find myself talking about a few months from now as soon. One thing I can know is that soon is not now.
And we always try to keep our customers satisfied. We ask what they need or want and somehow make it possible. It's our specialty - satisfying people. How's that for a business model.
And if I should mention the past or anything that I dislike or that boy who I still can't seem to get off my mind don't think anything of it. It's just a passing phase. It's just my mind spilling out of my mouth. Mentioning things.
I was just thinking the other day about my thoughts. They take up most of my day. Try to not have thoughts. It's difficult. Just when you think to yourself "Hey, I'm not having a thought right now!" You realize that that was just a thought.
They stand tall, They've been here forever and that's not something that will change anytime soon. Some are powerful. Some are just run down. Those that remain inside are either taken care of left to fend for themselves.
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