Grey66
july the 1st is the day i got bored. I wondered if I could do anything, I mean I know it was the first day of the month and I was supposed to be pinching and punching everyone, but really I just couldn't be bothered. July the 1st is the day I got really, really bored. So what did I do?
i raped a child.
I will come up from this rockbottom because the only thing I can do now is rise. And the words you're saying may mean nothing to you but everything to me. and soon enough, I will become your words... but that's not true anymore. I feel so alive, I can do anything I want. And the first thing on my list? To show you me. To show you what I can really be, how I should be, how I could be, how I WANT to be. And what do I want to be? Me. And you are just going to have to accept that whether you like it or not :)
I will come up from this rockbottom because the only way is to rise. And the words you're saying may mean nothing to you but everything to me. and soon enough, I will become your words... but that's not true anymore. I feel so alive, I can do anything I want. And the first thing on my list? To show you me.
rise the sun will rise. I will rise above you all, but is that what I really want? Maybe I should just be enjoying what I'm doing, whether or not I am the best. Because winning is not success, love is success. And if you have love for what you do... you've just succeeded and it's all you can do. Maybe.
the place where i never want to go back to again. the worst holiday ever, the service was horrible and the food... yuck. and where I stayed? well the road was really dirty so when I had to stay there for 3 weeks, it made me feel like I had no money. I did have earn a lot of money though, only to find I had to buy drugs with it and privilege myself instead of doing something useful. but everything has changed now, because now... I'm happy.
underneath the sea is a magical world fille with love, honor mermaids and everything you can imagine. the evil pompous looks down at us all, impossible to defeat. or is it? the question remains for Puyo to answer. It will take years but it should be worth it.
i am from the place no one knows. the place where deers run, no one hates, no one cares about worries and the only thing we say is 'hakuna matana'. i see the metal birds, they soar above. but all they do is drop the mountains and suddenly everything disappears. mama calls it a 'bomb'. we all hide in the watering hole when we see it. i wish there was peace.
Where do I live? Am I local? or am I not because I come from somewhere else? I feel so rejected sometimes just because I am not from here, like no one wants to know me. "Whose that?" "oh just the international girl." it makes me feel sick to my stomach, and sometimes - i just wish i wasnt me.
soon i will show you what i have. not only my inner voice, but my inner power. soon you will discover the true beauty that is me. i am the best me there is, because there is no one who is more me than me. soon, you will realize how spectacular everyone truly is inside and out. soon the world will glow with glory and everything in it will shine with its soul coming out. you want to be in a place where you know you can see your loved ones. soon is a place you want to be, soon is now. so make it happen soon. i always wondered about the word soon... if it meant now, the future, the past, or maybe just plain time. is soon far in the future? far in the present? is there such thing as soon? or simply a way of tricking us.
soon i will show you what i have. not only my inner voice, but my inner power. soon you will discover the true beauty that is me. i am the best me there is, because there is no one who is more me than me. soon, you will realize how spectacular everyone truly is inside and out. soon the world will glow with glory and everything in it will shine with its soul coming out. you want to be in a place where you know you can see your loved ones. soon is a place you want to be, soon is now. so make it happen soon.
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