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It's a punishment to be doing your best and to find it's not enough. Why would someone punish someone for a deed they didn't commit? The system doesn't care about this, so why punish the people who try with the crushing knowledge that they are not good enough? To lose your faith in yourself is the greatest punishment of all.
What does it mean to be near to someone, to be close? There's the kind where you can be right next to each other but still a million miles away. Then there's the kind where you are inside their mind, their heart, but you physically are a million miles away. I want nothing more to be near, to be close to some people, and others I would not mind if we were on opposite sides of the planet. What does it mean to be near?
White, blank, a place for thoughts or painting. Covered with oil, maybe varnished or whatever the world is... Acrylic! Stretched over wooden frame, maybe white, possibly on an easel on a hill. Painting, artistry, tent material, strong, durable. Waterproof.
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