Samifish
I am available.
Let's go out.
Cause you're awesome.
And I am less awesome.
But together we could be super awesome.
Or the AWSOMEST.
With you, of course.
Without you, I am just available.
I am a simple man. I enjoy simple things.
Apparently that's not enough.
I object to this wondrous occasion.
I must object.
I cannot be the only one who feels like this is wrong.
It is wrong.
Maybe my presence alone can show her...
Show her that I only object out of love.
And out of fear.
I don't really know how to cook. I wish that I could say that I am trying to since it seems like cooking is a real turn on for the ladies. But alas, I am not. My crazy fantasy of me cooking for a woman I am interested in seems, well, exciting, but I know it would actually end up with me in the hospital because of some grease fire or whatnot after trying to do some stupid flip with food in a pan.
Ah, the life of a pessimist/realist :P
The past.
I constantly think about it. Probably a little too much. I cannot think of one major part of my life that I have done completely without regret. But is that it? Is that my personality, am I doomed to fuck up at one point of anything, or is this how the world works.
Let's find out the time something great happens to my life.
I am not satisfied with who I am. I don’t think I’ll ever be. It’s just what 15 years of football(soccer) has done to me. There is always something more to achieve for. There is always room to improve. Always the next tournament to win. Always the next player title to acquire.
I will never be satisfied with who I am, but is that a problem?
I am not satisfied with who I am. I don't think I'll ever be. It's just what 15 years of football(soccer) has done to be. There is always something more to achieve for. There is always room to improve, the next tournament to win, the next player title to achieve.
I will never be satisfied with who I am, but is that a problem?
If I heard you mention me once, that would be enough.
If I mention that I am happy in my own skin
That I am okay with who I am
That my crazy story gets crazier.
That it was great to be with her
Then you are a friend.
If I mention to you that I am not perfect
That I am uncomfortable with myself and probably will always be
That I cannot think of anything I have done without regret
That I do not understand anyone's reason to like me.
Then you are the one.
I am sorry. You cannot love another until you love yourself, therefore I will never love you.
Measured. Makes me think about math, considering I have a Calculus 2 test coming up in the next 24 hours that I should be studying for instead of doing this. But I enjoy this whole-heartedly. It's not only an activity or a workout for the brain, it is something I do for daily enjoyment. Once a writer, always a writer.
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