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I could never go down to the river to wash clothes by myself. Ever since my younger brother, Elric, drowned that one day three years ago. I would always have to bring Mommy or Aunty with me.
A little globe floating
above all the hearts
of all the souls--
changing colors with feelings,
emotions flowing
into each other
feeding off of each other.
Keep your aura clear
then your soul shall be seen.
Do you remember that time in your life when you decided not to be righteous anymore? You decided to rebel just to see how it felt. "It's just this moment," you told yourself. "I am still good every other time."
Remember that time
when all you had to think
about was what made you happy &
what made you happy actually made
you happy except
for that one inch
in the back of your brain telling
you there is more out there? And
now that you are grown & learned
happiness is a little more
than arm's length away & you're looking
back thinking:
am I glad I scratched that itch?
I used to think that when you cut your hair, no matter how much was cut off, you became a new person just a little bit. In some way you could see the world differently, but only for a day or two or three and then you adapted to the change... that new part of yourself became just another part added to the bunch.
He never knew what it was like to have a god. His parents never taught him to praise one more than the other. His parents taught him that we are all equal. Worship himself, and he worships everyone; worship everyone, and he worships himself.
There comes a certain point in your life where you begin to look back at everything you have done. You can search back to a time where your innocence had been untouched & then fast forward to points where this innocence has been lost. And you decide whether life was better then or now.
I've never felt so imprisoned in my life and I am supposed to be happy. I am supposed to be in love but what did this come to but you controlling me with my weaknesses so that you don't have to feel alone and unloved.
I used to think butterflies were scary. Their eyes were so big and that little curly thing (that I never knew the name of) looked like it wanted to suck fluid out of me if given the chance. I always tried to catch them, though, and conquer my fear of something so delicate and harmless.
I wouldn't like it if you said "jump" right now
as I stand on the edge
of civilization and something that means
"help." I never knew the roles would flip
and someone would be trying to fix me instead.
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