trystyian
Slip away down the path of my love
is this enough
You need more than just me
broken and weathered
Step into the light you have earned
nothing is empty
without your fingers around my heart
drift into hell
where I reside with my blackened hate
another is better
You are the golden gift of life inside
I am nothing
Given to the one you have been
another you have
Emptyness reigns forever now
walk the ocean
farther and farther you slip
madness comes
the angel of death cannot have you
only me
time slips you further and further
into the grey
what will the sly angel say now?
Black dreams
the light consumes me as I scream
the bed empty
You're gone forever without a sound
dreams cannot heal
the love you rended from me
Go away
I am nothing without you
Left in the house alone
Blackness to overcome the empty
no sound is heard now
just me breathing in the stale air
the windows are closed and shuttered
keeping me within this parochial prison
why did she have to leave me?
dream of nothing inside
why cannot i stay this way?
lost forever to everyone
it is only time that brings me
the pain lost inside forever
why do you want to open it
the can of a man baffled
lost into his own soul
of dreamy heartless wonder
the day she came
into the soul
of my beginning
where did i go
now into the heart
of a man lost forever
aboard the wave of life
i cannot abide anymore
the path is too long
until she smiles again
the nightmare of our existence
lightened in the mire of the pain
will she see what it means
the gift she has given
to one so lost for so long
i just wish i was enough
to make her see what
she can more than be
I am her guardian now
dare the one that hurt her
come near me asshole
you will see what hell feels like
look there she is again
keeping me here
the nightmares lost while she is
the blackness abated for now
her own pain a red ribbon
that i will untie one day
until she is aboard the same life
the blackness I will lose each time
the memory of what I am not
and what she will be lingers
standing there blocking out the real
love lost between two forever
i cannot have another
someone will love her
but will she let them
i cannot see that far
the clouds are forming now
the greyness satisfying
my aching soul for today
she will keep me here
as i sleep my life away
aboard the dream of nowhere
wake me when my heart feels
again lost in the path of dreams
where will it lead this broken man
nothing could be worse than now
moments of lucid beginnings
stolen from the soul of need
dream again without me you say
nothing else i have to give away
walk the path for me again
my eyes are blind in the rain
where will this lead my pain?
Black is here again, with me
I will walk again when I wake
over and over i will succumb
to the memories of a stolen child
no one wanted after that day
Will you walk or run away?
The vision opens again
the boy becomes the hated
the heart lost in the dream
of another day stolen from him
will you still be here when he wakes?
to see the blackness eaten away
by the love that resides within
my heart is the dream you want to see
the red a constant love of life
you are still here? why? I...
Words stolen into the night of my soul
time takes its toll on one man
walking down the bridge of life
which way will i go to find that one
tell me now does my heart linger?
within your soul of more than one
moments taken into the will of the need
you are here inside the golden beams
light shining in a violet haze of dreams
why cannot just say what is inside
looking across the other side wondering
steps taken lightly into the realm of hate
one does not tread here the way i do
too much taken, too much pain
will you see me for what I am now?
The arrogance a mask of indecision
One last look, one last time, one more step
farther away from what I once was
there you are on the other side
white violet intensity seething through
pain taken into the fold of the secrets
Turn away, look inside its me
I need you more than words permit
the white hood of isolation falls away
the bridge has been crossed as I fall
Into arms meant for me?
Secrets lost into indecisions of hope
Will you take them now?
Can you see my heart?
Beating time away
into your soul
today was the dream coming true
the flat desert endless until i returned
this land of hell that bore me into it
what hell will you render me into
step after step, day after day of nothing
where are you? why now? me?
there it is, home, nothing is here now
i am just a grey bear of what I was
the hollow sounds echo against my heart
his voice is full in my deaf ears
screaming at my stupidity
leaving him behind
why
I cannot think anymore
the love behind a door
one the world did abhor
i am lost as i have lost
all of them now
except one
Son
Help me see more
give me your hand
i cannot walk
the pain
too much
go
they will not find me
across the sea
son go now
they are
here
blackness comes now
have I done enough
for one life
I must
go
broad and short
there he is taking my eye
wherever he walks
love unbound
they fall into a smile
only my eyes can see
i love him too you know
his features a mystery
to any other but me
he touches me inside the world
my heart makes just for him
taking away the pain and turmoil
his fingers love in the cavity
words meaningless to the mind
souls twisted imperitive to love
why must i be imprisned here?
as he flies away to another land
sitting on shelf
collecting dust
forever lost forgotten
unheard unfelt unwanted
what is this dream now?
creeping across the waves
placed far away to find the love
inside the layers of dust
the heart flutters again
rendering two into one
after years of not feeling
beginnings of love
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