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sly

Slip away down the path of my love is this enough You need more than just me broken and weathered Step into the light you have earned nothing is empty without your fingers around my heart drift into hell where I reside with my blackened hate another is better You are the golden gift of life inside I am nothing Given to the one you have been another you have Emptyness reigns forever now walk the ocean farther and farther you slip madness comes the angel of death cannot have you only me time slips you further and further into the grey what will the sly angel say now? Black dreams the light consumes me as I scream the bed empty You're gone forever without a sound dreams cannot heal the love you rended from me Go away I am nothing without you

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Left in the house alone Blackness to overcome the empty no sound is heard now just me breathing in the stale air the windows are closed and shuttered keeping me within this parochial prison why did she have to leave me?

dream of nothing inside why cannot i stay this way? lost forever to everyone it is only time that brings me the pain lost inside forever why do you want to open it the can of a man baffled lost into his own soul of dreamy heartless wonder

the day she came into the soul of my beginning where did i go now into the heart of a man lost forever aboard the wave of life i cannot abide anymore the path is too long until she smiles again the nightmare of our existence lightened in the mire of the pain will she see what it means the gift she has given to one so lost for so long i just wish i was enough to make her see what she can more than be I am her guardian now dare the one that hurt her come near me asshole you will see what hell feels like look there she is again keeping me here the nightmares lost while she is the blackness abated for now her own pain a red ribbon that i will untie one day until she is aboard the same life the blackness I will lose each time the memory of what I am not and what she will be lingers standing there blocking out the real love lost between two forever i cannot have another someone will love her but will she let them i cannot see that far the clouds are forming now the greyness satisfying my aching soul for today she will keep me here as i sleep my life away aboard the dream of nowhere

wake me when my heart feels again lost in the path of dreams where will it lead this broken man nothing could be worse than now moments of lucid beginnings stolen from the soul of need dream again without me you say nothing else i have to give away walk the path for me again my eyes are blind in the rain where will this lead my pain? Black is here again, with me I will walk again when I wake over and over i will succumb to the memories of a stolen child no one wanted after that day Will you walk or run away? The vision opens again the boy becomes the hated the heart lost in the dream of another day stolen from him will you still be here when he wakes? to see the blackness eaten away by the love that resides within my heart is the dream you want to see the red a constant love of life you are still here? why? I... Words stolen into the night of my soul

time takes its toll on one man walking down the bridge of life which way will i go to find that one tell me now does my heart linger? within your soul of more than one moments taken into the will of the need you are here inside the golden beams light shining in a violet haze of dreams why cannot just say what is inside looking across the other side wondering steps taken lightly into the realm of hate one does not tread here the way i do too much taken, too much pain will you see me for what I am now? The arrogance a mask of indecision One last look, one last time, one more step farther away from what I once was there you are on the other side white violet intensity seething through pain taken into the fold of the secrets Turn away, look inside its me I need you more than words permit the white hood of isolation falls away the bridge has been crossed as I fall Into arms meant for me? Secrets lost into indecisions of hope Will you take them now? Can you see my heart? Beating time away into your soul

flat

today was the dream coming true the flat desert endless until i returned this land of hell that bore me into it what hell will you render me into step after step, day after day of nothing where are you? why now? me? there it is, home, nothing is here now i am just a grey bear of what I was the hollow sounds echo against my heart his voice is full in my deaf ears screaming at my stupidity leaving him behind why I cannot think anymore the love behind a door one the world did abhor i am lost as i have lost all of them now except one Son Help me see more give me your hand i cannot walk the pain too much go they will not find me across the sea son go now they are here blackness comes now have I done enough for one life I must go

broad and short there he is taking my eye wherever he walks love unbound they fall into a smile only my eyes can see i love him too you know his features a mystery to any other but me

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he touches me inside the world my heart makes just for him taking away the pain and turmoil his fingers love in the cavity words meaningless to the mind souls twisted imperitive to love why must i be imprisned here? as he flies away to another land

sitting on shelf collecting dust forever lost forgotten unheard unfelt unwanted what is this dream now? creeping across the waves placed far away to find the love inside the layers of dust the heart flutters again rendering two into one after years of not feeling beginnings of love

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