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Is this not shorthand? is life not shorthand? is everything not a quick rapid expression? so fast so meaningful, so meaningless. im supposed to be continuously writing. hows that for shorthand.

i found it. i knew it. it wasn't mine. i could feel it. i never wanted to be the other one. i don't even know her and i know she couldn't handle this. i couldn't handle this. this is why we don't deserve this. the power of when you think you're too attractive. how can you not find love in one? or one to love?

i am as passive as i am selfish i am wrong as i am right i am judgmental i will tear apart everything that is once beautiful and once was ugly. everything has become a number. in the world of art, we are all math teachers. i am what you are

I set up a booth you walk through you found a way to smile and i winked i demonstrate the world to you in such a fake attitude you think im witty and i think you're cute i demonstrate love to you you're nervous i am too

track

Keeping your life on track. Setting goals. The difference between the person who writes themselves a ten thousand dollar check and puts it under their bed and the person who laughs at the idea. Keep on, keeping on. I think, in some way, i will never be on track. I will always be above or around the track. I continue to track whatever I want to track. I think

the world spins slow motion. but yet, so fast. so on point. they fastly work to obey their queen. hard at work for fear of no forgiving. i have found the droids of society. just counting on counting. one by one.

dozen

dime a dozen, sweetie, you act so brave so comfortable with the act. but let's pretend this has never happened. i will continue to walk the way and you can continue watching me. i won't call and neither will you. dime a dozen, we both seem to be.

apron

tattooed with cake batter and sprinkles, white smear marks of flour like a warrior. The smell fills the air, I am dressed like the princess of bakes, Kiss the cook, I will find more ways to perfect the simpliest chocolate chip cookie.

I burn bridges to keep myself from going back. i found a way to lose everything I once loved and once loved me back. I think I can run quick before I feel the word breaking. I will collapse feet first before the taking. Alone. Without a scar..

I rather be anywhere than here. I rather be here than anywhere Who is the word? And what says go? Green means so many things. I close my eyes and I'm there. I'm anywhere. Who are you? Because, I've found a perfect place. It's between here and there. It's anywhere. and there, I can be any one. any day. with no care.

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Natty wrote about mutual
“can we even call it a compromise anymore? we are always trying to get to this mutual ground but every situation to you is different from the next. woe is me. and me has become to the point i've found…”

the words Natty reaches for

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